Luahan seorang pesakit psikiatri

Well,selamat datang ke blog fifi.....

Actually Fifi nak kongsi sedikit kisah sedih yang melanda Fifi.....sob sob.....sedih gila...ok la back to the story.....cerita dia camni tahun lepas 2018 bulan 3 Fifi dah rasa sedih sedih tu lama gila....berlanjutan sampai bulan 6 ke 7 i dont remember....pastu ada dengar suara tau....takut gila....pastu masa bulan 7 i overdose dan dibawa ke UIA medical centre dan ditahan sehari...nasib baik tak mati.....

credit to google

And then bermulalah appointment pertama...doktor diagnose sebagai skizofrenia...depression tu tak pasti tapi rasanya high functioning depression....memang sedih gila time tu....sebab rasa macam orang gila time tu...ok pastu ibu macam diam je macam takleh terima...ayah pon terkejut..lepastu beberapa bulan kemudian berlaku episod kemurungan tapi tak teruk tapi rasa sedih tu sampai pikir macam macam....rasa nak mati tu kuat sangat...i was hopeless

ohh lupa nak cakap...Fifi buat suicide attempt 2 kali..dua dua overdose.Sebab apa Fifi buat?? Sebab Fifi sendiri rasa nak mati.I was crying all night,and no ones care.I was thinking if i dead then my family would better.They would be better because they don't have to spend money on me.

Tanda Tanda depression and skizofrenia yang fifi ada

depression:

1. Rasa murung lebih dari 2 minggu
2. Kurang selera makan[fifi tak makan langsung,makan pun sebab kena paksa ngan ayah]
3. Asyik fikir nak mati
4. Asyik bersendirian/berkurung dalam bilik

Skizofrenia:

1. Dengar suara bisikan
2. nampak bayangan

Fifi pon tak ingat sangat dah.Sebab dah lama dekat 7 bulan tak dengar.Apa yang Fifi tempuhi sangat lah mencabar.Tahun ni Fifi 14 tahun.Tahun depan nak periksa PT3.Fifi taknaklah sedih sedih camni.So for those who have mental illness keep fighting.There must be another way instead of suicide.I know how it feels,when you try to get helps and nobody care.Fifi sendiri pon tak sedar semua tanda tu mental illness.for those who faking mental illness or make an inappropriate jokes about them please stop.You're not even helping,you just make it worse.Stop la kata tak dekat dengan tuhan.Baca quran banyak sikit,please stop.Its an ILLNESS.Sama la macam sakit buah pinggang ke sakit apa apa sakit la.Dia kena rawat.So i really hope everything will change.Even my teacher say that im crazy.We need trust,love and care.Nobody do that for us.Then how can you expect that we will recover?So that's all bebelan Fifi.Mesti ada yang tertanya tanya,macam mana Fifi boleh dapat mental illness,i also dont know,i also trying to figure out..